Reason: ...I think I like someone for the first time. I'm not sure. // Everything's going well except for... *points back* // *points back as well* // I don't know. Just am. ^^;
Hyped On: Drawing // Music // Drawing Class // Get Backers // Romance
Wanting To: Draw // Watch Get Backers // Ask for everyone's e-mails
Listening To: Venus in the Dark :: Mika Nakashima // Will :: Lisa // Yuuyami Suusaido :: PIERROT
Weird mood, huh? I don't really have much to say. I'm afraid of who might read this, considering I'll probably be giving the link to my classmates...I don't know... Anyway, I'm not really sure about it but I think I like someone. Why am I not sure? Because... well, I know it's weird seeing as I'm 15 years old, but I've never liked anyone before.
Well... yeah...I really don't know. I'm sorry for those who read this but I really am confused. I'm almost jumping up in joy inside waiting to look at him again during class and talk to him. Even if I shouldn't, everyone talks anyway xD;
But... *sigh* I'm... I'm so confused and half-depressed because... well, I'm not particularly a fairly good catch. I'm not very bright, I'm not healthy and I'm certainly more than considerably ugly. Not to mention my excessive amount of LARD. - -; And he's handsome and cute, and funny and we share most of our tastes... Not to mention he's as good as me, probably even better, in my areas of expertise.
Those who know about this are probably laughing their asses off <_<; LAUGH AWAY! SOMEDAY YOU'LL SEE WHEN A BOMB DROPS RIGHT ON YOUR HEAD.
...Or not.
I'm talking about Nessi and Saki (and Yuna but she doesn't really understand the situation) who are continually telling me I have a chance and that I like him. Well, I don't know if I do okay?! Plus... due to the aforementioned reasons, I would never ever have a chance.
What should I do? I e-mailed Kris-chan about it but she completely ignored me and went on about the Steve Irwin memorial... The most important thing that ever happened to me and she completely ignored it. I feel so, so hurt ._.; It's like... nothing about me matters anymore, she knew how freaking nervous I was for my first day and she didn't even sound excited when I finally talked to her about it. I don't know what to do, did I do something wrong to lose that kind of attention?
Or maybe I'm just being overly-sensitive.
Again.
I swear my sensitivity will bring forth my downfall one day. Something like:
Person: OH MY GOD SOMETHING HORRIBLE JUST HAPPENED TO ME, I NEED A HUG ;_;
Me: ;___; Awww! *goes*
Person: *OMGSTABZ*
Me: *OMGDED*
Or something of the sort.
I don't have anything else to type right now, talking to Nessi and being yelled at by MOM *glares towards living room* even if I do start classes later tomorrow.
I don't know what to do. I can't even talk to the guy ouside the classroom... I'm such a loser. He'd never like someone like me... Ever ._.
Take Care,
Aer-chan
P.S.
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/40127833/
Take a look at that, please x3;
P.P.S.
Nessi, I'm sure everything will turn out to be better than it looks. Trust me, when I'm optimistic, which is very rare, I'm usually right ^-^ You know I'm always here for you, no matter the odds, and sorry for being a fucking idiot and making you feel worse sometimes. I hope you forgive me. I love you a lot, you're my other half, my opposite, the other side of the mirror... You should know I care a lot about you, hell, as much as I care for my family... And that I would never intentionally hurt you.
Please, let me stay by your side... Even if I suck sometimes, I can try over and over again until I get it right. Please, just let me stay with you. I'm sure everything will get better soon ^_^