Mood: Romantic // Confused // Eager::Nervous
Reason: Does this every change? // Yuna... should I tell her? // Starting highschool at a new school soon.
Song: Another Grey Day In The Big Blue World :: Maaya Sakamoto // Dream Brother :: Jeff Buckley
Hello everyone.
I'm sorry I didn't post sooner but I only came back home a week ago and I haven't felt really up to it.
Greece was okay, I guess. I love that country. We went to pretty cool places, even though I'd been there before we went to different spots of the country... Except for Athens, but we can't help go back there. I hope I go back yet again.
We went to Santorini, Mykonos, Athens and Cape Sounio, to those who are interested ^^;
Now that I am back, I have to select the photos I like, zip them up and upload them and put the link here for download =3; Though I doubt anyone would care xD;
Anyway, this post will be rather short because I'm quite tired ^^; I went back-to-school shopping yesterday with Yuna. We had so much fun x3; There's this new collection of accessories and such called Coolcat and it's so pretty, all in greys and white and black, and always the same cats. We bought matching Pucca pencilcases, some dangly things from Coolcat and Bad Boy (another new brand we saw)... I bought some notebooks and two binders and nothing else, I think. I used my debit card for the first time... It's so much fun! x3; To pay without using actual, physical money, I mean.
She also slept over on Thursday to Friday. We had fun. We didn't watch anime or anything, just TV... and talked, I guess. It was fun, nonetheless. ^^;
I finally met Selina. I've been wanting to talk to her for a while now, for everything I've heard about her and such. She's even nicer than I thought, if that is humanly possible ^-^; Though I'm quite worried about her, she suffers a lot and I don't know how to help TT-TT;
I miss Nessi, she's in Tomar... She's coming back on the 10th, I think.
Wednesday, the 13th is my Birthday.
I am not looking up to it.
My birthdays always go wrong. Maybe it's the 13... Whatever. It always goes wrong and I end up crying and wishing that day had never happened.
Monday the 18th I start Highschool.
In a new, private school called Colégio Moderno.
I'm starting Singing lessons, Fencing, Advanced English, Italian and continuing with Tennis.
I'm nervous, because I don't think anyone will accept me there... socially, I mean.
I was feeling like crap last night, but for a very selfish reason ^^; It has to do with Yuna, Za and Sasuke... I'm not going to post it here, but let's say I spent many hours crying because of jealousy and loneliness and my stupid obsession with romance. I hate myself sometimes ._.;
Thankfully, Saki and Lhy were there for me <3 Thank you both ;-; Without you I wouldn't have been able to smile last night and fall asleep... You listened to me and helped me and cheered me up after that. You're the greatest <3
I have to thank Nessi too even though she's not here to read this. XD; I have to thank her for her support as well because she did a great job herself as well ^^
And this place still needs some buttons. Saki will kill me if I don't get some soon xD;
Anyhow, leaving now ^^ I'll leave you with a poem I wrote the other day ^^;
[ x ] D e s c e n d O n M e [ x ]
It’s oh so cold outside
Tonight
And your eyes just closed
For the last time
So I feel oh so lost
In fright
I guess I’m doomed to wander
The night.
Why won’t you descend on me?
With all your sensibility.
Soft-spoken words, politeness abound
Even when you’re not around.
Why won’t you descend on me?
With all your painful honesty
With all your words, ever so sweet
So sharp they make you bleed.
So why won’t you descend on me?
With your forsaken sympathy
So please, just please, descend on me
I’m no longer your enemy.
Many times I’ve tried to close
My eyes
Damp from tears and the rain
Outside
From when you ripped my chains
Away
And I was left to wander,
Astray.
Why won’t you descend on me?
With all your sensibility
Warm poetry in prose, leaving your lips
Even when I know nothing fits.
Why won’t you descend on me?
With all your painful honesty
Everything is either wrong or gone
And you still tell me to move on.
So why won’t you descend on me?
With your forsaken sympathy
So please, just please, descend on me
You’re the only thing I see.
The rain falls all the same
Even if we’re both down
We’ll never reach the hall of fame
None of us will wear the crown.
Now that you’ve descended on me
And we’re both stuck to the ground
I need your sensibility,
Painful honesty and sympathy
To lift my head and look around.
We’re forsaken, we’re both forsaken
So… why did you descend on me?
So ^^; This is goodbye until I post again x3;
Please comment on this post if you read the poem ^-^;
Byebye <3
A e r - c h a n
P.S.
Hang on there, Selina-san TT;
Please comment on this post if you read the poem ^-^;
Byebye <3
A e r - c h a n
P.S.
Hang on there, Selina-san TT;
